What does it look like to do things because they are from my heart, leading with love, and not for any reason but to glorify God? To be love and not expect any response. Not to need any approval. Not to need anything from any person. What does that look like? Settled. Full of Peace. Joy. On purpose. Leading with love. For no reason but because I am moved by Holy Spirit (HS), Jesus, God and respond in love.
I want to be fully me without fear, with my eyes on you Lord, unable to take my eyes from you. I want to be under your covering and any lash out, judgment, disdain, criticism, measured by worldly eyes, just rolls off you, it doesn’t even touch me. It is without power. It is without any weight. I get to choose who I listen to and what I value. I get to choose where I gaze and what I listen to. It is not unlike switching radio stations, listening choices, television and movies, getting to change the channel. I get to choose input. I do it in every area. This is another area. I choose.
Beth (B) – Before, you were before: before my birth, before my first breath, before everything. Before. You were with me in everything, in every place, moment and conversation, with love. Love, it’s who you are. And today, all love, all the time, in every way, with me constantly in every moment, place, thought, and conversation. Thank you, Lord.
God (G) – Love. Lead with love.
B – Lord, I want to hear you.
G – In every breathe, I am with you and it is good. You keep with me and watch and see. Just rest and watch and wait and see. It is my mighty move and my mighty work.
B – Yes Lord.
G – It is truth. Stand with me. Lean in, rest, and watch and see. It is amazing. This time is incredible, bigger and better than you have ever imagined or can even imagine now. It is really good.
B – Joy, peace, celebration, new and unusual, not usual, new and fresh and real and mighty and strong with you Lord. Thank you, Lord. Relationship with you Lord, I love you. It is my heart’s desire. Show me your way. I want it your way without should, without legalism, without rules, with you and Jesus and HS, completely eyes on you. Thank you, Lord.
Oh Lord, (in relationships with others) I feel like you are showing me freedom from should, expectations, meeting others’ needs, (instead) being true to me, taking care of me, saying things that are true for me, hearing and seeing clearly and not making excuses or believing better, just feeling it, the emptiness and the lack of connection, but without the brokenness. Instead feeling it from a place of fullness; fully feeling Daddy God’s pleasure in just how much he loves me and how he sees me and knowing I am choosing well. Better to be one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere. I am choosing fullness of life, truth, peace, joy and that feels really good.
Excerpt from An Encourager’s Heart