Jeremiah 29:13 “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
Beth (B) – Lord, I am not as close to you as I choose to be. I want to be closer – I want to choose more – my heart needs more Jesus. My heart needs closer. I have always – in all relationships – longed for closer and what the enemy used for harm, to steal, kill and destroy – I am choosing to give my heart fully to you – no reservation, no holding back – fully and completely expecting a flood of you – your goodness, your mercy, your joy, your peace, your pleasure, your approval, your attention, your love – fully, unconditionally – because that is who you are. Not because of who I am or what I think or do. You – fully God in me – I want more. I want whatever your plan is. I want whatever your way is. I want more of you and less of my flesh. I want more of my spirit man and less of my soulish man – I want the peace that surpasses understanding. I want the counselor and friend. I want your wisdom and security. I want more. All the things that are held up as valuable are not – I want the worth to be in you. I want to be your treasured gem that you hold up with love and adoration and I want to feel it and believe it more deeply and fully. I want it for me but I also want it for others. I want my heart to lead with love and be Jesus in the room, in the line, in the car, in the conversation, in the note, in the look, in the hug, in all the places you have me and all the people you orchestrate for me to see and be near and with – I want more of you. I want more from our friendship. I want it the way you designed it to be – fully – not my broken view or limits or expectations.
Thank you, Lord, for all the mysteries you are showing me. Thank you for your care, truth, peace, and care. Thank you for the rescue operation. Thank you that I matter to you.
God (G) – What if…what if it’s true that I love you more deeply than you have ever imagined? What if my face lights up about you when I see you and when I think about you? What if all my plans are for you and not against you? What if I see you clothed in royal gowns and jewels and tiaras and wealth all around you? What if I showcase you daily and more see and notice than you are even aware? What if I watch you leak Jesus everywhere you go and in every thought and word? What if I am really, really well pleased?
B – Lord, what? Unveil? What does it look like?
G – It looks like Be still and know I AM God. You get to be still. You do not need to do. You get to be you – live well and enjoy. This is not a season of heavy. This is a season of light.
B – ha, light. Light weight and light bright.
G – I Am says be light.
B – Yes Lord – I see. I hear. I desire what you desire. I am laying down all to you. I no longer desire to take care of any that you do not call me to. I want revelation Lord in every area that is bent away from truth. I want a truth alignment Lord. Your way.
Excerpt from An Encourager’s Heart