(A few days later)
Beth (B) – So Lord, feeling a little lighter. Thanks for the revelation of performance, strive for, control, perfection and my identity that is attached to my ability to plan, research, and get it done. Wrapped in stewarding money well but the reality is a huge amount of time to plan the shopping yesterday for the things needed on sale and super sale and Lord, the $5 mistake and the $6 mistake the week before. Lord, the truth, I am appreciated and stewarding well and the tape in my head needs to change from the cringe worthy criticism of my intelligence or lack thereof to the truth. I purchase and shop responsibly to help our family and it’s ok. It’s the revelation you gave me for another, what is my expectation of myself (perfection, doing my very best always and that defines me) versus what you have to say. So Lord, I want to hear you this morning.
God (G) – It’s good, you’re asking, tender heart, seeing what I see. No need to clutch, grasp, steal or store, it is all from me and with hands wide open, I provide constantly. You are right in seeing it (provision and favor) and all the ways I shower constantly. Keep seeing my way and you are never ever defined by your effort. It is never my expectation that you perform or dance for me. Long ago a little girl danced to get noticed and that is no longer your story.
You danced when you were little,
B – began writing all the ways I “danced” to be noticed when I was younger…
G – But the new you is noticed because of me in you. It is not a do, strive, perfection, try hard, dance. Instead, it is Me, overwhelming, filling and leaking out in every way, in every interaction.
In your hugs
In your smiles
In your encouraging words
In your NOT worldly view, but instead your kingdom view
In your way with me
In your love, care, concern, listening well, unoffendable heart, seeing others perspective, view
Being still
Trusting.
You speak differently. Others notice that you notice and you are not judging or condemning and not agreeing with a false story line, the lie. It is so subtle to you, but it is the truth infiltrating the world and the lies, so many lies that just float out there. It is what I have been asking you to listen to. It is for the ….
B – ?
G – My kids need truth in every area. So many are locked up in the lie and you are my truth girl. You are doing great. It isn’t doing, like you think, it is doing like I think, my way and it is utterly beautiful. Every place that you see and allow me to infiltrate is divine and I love doing.
Was it worth the $5 or the $6 or the $11?
B – Yes Lord, it was worth everything. Thank you.
G – Your diligence, stewarding well, is good but it is not your idol. I am your Papa, and you are making amazing, beautiful choices and using your brain, (that I gave you and it is dynamic and incredible. Keep speaking truth over your brain.) and all that I am providing to you (you are stewarding) in a magnificent way. Just watch and see what I do. It is amazing and you will love every minute of discovering Me in every moment. Trust me! It looks different to the world, but you are revealing so much in this time to all those watching. This is legend. It is the storyline that will survive long and serve many and minister for generations to the hearts of those that love me and long to know me more.
B – Wow! Yes Lord, feeling this enormity.
G – Yes, it is big, it is bigger than you can see right now, and it is magnificent, and you are “doing” just right. You are more than enough with me in every area. Be still and know it is ALL in my care and concern and it is all important to me and it is all beautiful. You are magnificent in my way and I am always excited to see what we will do together next. You are my favorite and I love you and I am with you and for you and I am unleashing the storehouse of heaven for you as you are ready!
B – Yes Lord. I feel a rest, a peace, a knowing in my heart, how safe and peaceful this place is with you and how much I enjoy seeing what you do and how you do it Lord. It is magnificent and so much fun to watch. And all the places that nip, I see you covering, protecting, pushing. Thank you for heavenly insight and wisdom to see OLD and New in a way that is fresh and real and feels safe and protected and on point and relaxes my heart to slip into you more, knowing well that you are my Daddy and you’ve got this. You are worth every thing, my all Lord. I love you. Thank you. Wow, Lord. I love your upside-down ways. Seeing it’s just like a pineapple upside down cake. You create, put it together, and I see this golden cake and you flip it, and it is even better with bubbling buttery brown sugar glaze and chunks of glistening pineapple. You even add a dollop of whip cream and scoops of ice cream and really make it super special just because you can and just because you love me and just because. Thank you Lord for All your just because. You amaze me and you are amazing, and I am again so incredibly grateful that you make a “lesson” beautiful . Yes Lord, worth all of the $11. I will forever remember my $11. Thank you. So funny, just realized 11th of the month.
G – Peace Sweetie. Enjoy watching what I have in store today.
B – Thank you Lord. Thank you Lord. Me unclenched. Let go. You unhinged, doors off hinges, open up your gates. Yes Lord.
Excerpt from An Encourager’s Heart