I started my journaling time writing two words, swoozy woozy. This isn’t an expression I use or two words I’ve ever heard together or seen but it was where my journaling began on this morning. I recognize unusual to me words and phrases as places where the Holy Spirit is in me. And so began my conversation.
Beth(B) –Just rereading, ‘feeling swoozy, woozy.’ Is that the right word? Feeling shriveled. Not been in here in awhile, but also knowing with All of my heart that you are with me and not against me. Choosing not to believe lies but choosing to believe truth. So many rich truths. Lord, Lord, speak. Help me listen. Where do you want me? Focus my heavy heart on you.
God(G) – Beloved, yes You! You are my beloved. Sit up. It is my day with you, with joy and peace I surround you. Give me every thing, feelings, thoughts, imaginations, dreams and let me rest here with you. We are so much different together than we once were. It is rich and true and beautiful. I love you. I love where you are and how you focus constantly on me. Give yourself the grace that I Am and you are perfect with me. I see you writing, enjoying, reflecting, stacks of notebooks, smiling, laughing. This is not heavy lifting labor, this is labor of love. Yes, it is happening and I am so excited to reveal it to you. I see it already. It is already done and the angels laugh and cry over the pages. It is a delight. It is rich. It is full of me. My fragrance, the aroma of me is poured out. It is a sacrifice that I love (to see). It is poured over my people like the perfume poured over Jesus feet. It is for my glory and it is beautiful. Rest and let me be. I AM. It will all flow, come together, it is done, wrapped in a red bow. Now just rest as I unveil it. It is done. I am so excited to see you labor in love. It is like the birth of your baby. It is work with delight and care and love. It is so beautiful and yes you will want to do it again.
(This is a funny reference from the Lord. After delivering my son, I immediately said to the nurse, “I can’t wait to do that again.” Her jaw dropped and she said, “No one ever says that in the delivery room.” This comment from the Lord spoke to my heart. Yes, even in the hard labor the reward is worth it.)
It is done. So be, be still, be free, be you, be Me, be. Just be. Breathe, just breathe.
B – Thank you, Lord. I am resting, waiting, being still and knowing and thanking and breathing. Thank you Lord, for simplicity, grace, being reals, being true, always being true. Thank you for your love and care, Lord. My scripture today Lord? Show me.
Ephesians 4:3
Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.
Excerpt from Loving and Faithful