Beth (B) – So wondering about what I see and how I can get to seeing the way you see Lord? Thinking on gratitudes list – blessings and favor – and while it keeps me thanking and praising, it is measuring – I don’t think you measure that way – what am I seeing from the world’s measure of value, plenty?
God (G) – Feeble
B – What Lord? I want to agree with you – in speaking the Word, declaring truth – Lord, I repent for giving the enemy ammunition against us – for giving him places to dwell. And Lord, I repent for the words of agreement with lies – Lord, I choose you. I want to see your way. I want to speak truth and decree the word is true over us. I want to lay aside labor and take up your cross. What does that look like? My yoke is easy my burden is light? You carried the cross – you died – you did the heavy burden and you did it for me – Lord I want to walk knowing fully the truth – I am feeling struggle as I write – realizing not everything is immediately (for the) book – I want to continue to just be and enjoy – you have given me plenty to type – I want our time without expectations or pressure – just us – I also feel tension of the circumstances and wanted to see it your way – The circumstances are plenty in disguise?
God (G) – There is always enough to take care – I am stretching others around you – others to see differently – others to be still – whatever – it does not touch you – it is ok – it is well –
Your marching orders
– choose me
– be still and know I AM
– see with heavenly eyes
Things are not as they appear in the natural and the disguises are for my glory – the upside down, inside out nature of my kingdom fully displays me – keep yearning to see me and all the rest falls just right – the viewfinder clicks when you see me – me – I AM – Love, patience, kindness, justice, settled, relaxed, purposeful, busy, rested, always with you, always for you, always. Never, not ever, does the truth change. Never, not ever, does my love change. Never, not ever, does my habit change. I AM – always the same – yesterday – today and tomorrow – it is really big to read the word and see me in the promises, the truth, the places, the meaning, the love letter – it is all about me for you and then – as you stand – you see me – you see my love, you see my way – you see me – fear has no place, doubt vanishes, wonder and awe abound – I am always doing a new, creative thing – always for my glory and always because I love.
B – I want to rest in this Lord – take me places in your word Lord – show me what you want me to see – decree – stand – love – abandon all that doesn’t fit on the ship – dropping fear, anxiety, worry over the side in the name of Jesus. I will not engage in doubt, shame, loathing, judgment, discouragement, disappointment, denial, all going over the side – I am letting it all slip from my hand – unclenched – unburdened – unmoved – I am loved – I am important – I am special – I am unique – I am enough – I am protected – I am safe – I am because I AM says so and He tells the truth every time – I am choosing I AM – Lord show me what this looks like – practically – daily – interactions – family and friends – habits – time – daily activities – prioritizing – show me Lord –
Psalm 22:4 (TPT) Our fathers’ faith was in you – through the generations they trusted and believed in you and you came through.
Excerpt from Truth In Hard Places