Beth (B) – Woke up still hurting. I realize the strive for, performance still there. Bias in so many areas really limits what I can share. So I listen. Why opinion? Why verbalize bias? Why? It’s a wedge…
God (G) – Only if you let it. Enemy desires but don’t do it. Just love. Exercise the unoffendable …
B – (…heart that I desire). Lord help me. My mind says yes. My heart hurts.
I do not need to prove I am worthy to anyone. I am worthy because you say so God. I am valued for things that others have no idea about. I am a loving, respectful, honoring wife. I am the daughter of God, Daddy, full of Him, overflowing in HS (my nickname for Holy Spirit), passionate about Jesus, spilling love and encouragement everywhere I go, desiring to be still, resting and trusting, living my life on purpose for you Lord.
The surface tension
Still it sits
But just a feather shifts
A brick displaces and disturbs.
You call me to keep my eyes on you.
Love and forgive.
The displaced places stir and shift
And yet I choose you once again.
I sit still and linger,
Eyes on you,
And know you love me yet.
I will choose you God.
I will choose love.
I will forgive and not dwell.
I will.
I will because you say it’s true
I am special, loved and kept.
I am not left, disdained or judged.
I am covered by your blood.
I am the girl you made.
I am your favorite yet.
I am the one uniquely set to touch and love and
I am valued.
I am pure.
I am wonderfully and beautifully made.
I am known by you.
I am.
The matters of this world are no matter as I sit settled in your love.
I am treasured, valued, highly prized.
I am honored, loved and unblemished.
I am protected.
You allow so I can see the places that still hurt.
You allow so I can see the choices I still have.
You allow so I can see my places that yearn to rest.
I choose to rest.
To lay it down.
To know you know me best.
And even though it hurts my heart
To know it’s for my best,
To know that you see – just right,
To know that you are holding me tight,
To know that I can lay it down, not hold tight.
To know that I am on purpose with you.
That it is good.
Your plan is good.
That you get the last word.
Every time.
And it is well with my soul.
Excerpt from An Encourager’s Heart